Being Indo-Fijian Kiwi: I’ve lived in NZ most of my life. I feel like I still don’t belong

by ethan.brook News Editor

For many, the concept of home is a fixed point on a map, a place of ancestral certainty. But for those navigating the complexities of an Indo-Fijian Kiwi identity, home is often a fragmented map, marked by forced migrations, colonial erasure, and the lingering echoes of political instability.

The journey from the Indian subcontinent to the sugar plantations of Fiji, and eventually to the shores of Aotearoa New Zealand, is not merely a family history; it is a legacy of survival. For the descendants of the Girmitiyas—Indian indentured laborers brought to Fiji by the British Empire—the struggle for belonging is a lifelong process of reclaiming a narrative that was systematically stripped away.

This experience is characterized by a unique form of displacement. Unlike some migrant groups who maintain a direct, unbroken link to a specific village or province in their ancestral land, many Indo-Fijians find that their roots in India were severed by the very nature of the indenture system. The result is a “lost diaspora,” where the search for identity leads through multiple continents, often ending in a feeling of being an outsider in every single one.

The Legacy of the Girmitiya

The foundation of the Indo-Fijian experience began in 1879, when the first ships carrying Indian laborers arrived in Fiji. These individuals were part of a British colonial system of unfree labor known as indenture. The term “Girmitiya” itself is a linguistic artifact, derived from a corruption of the English word “agreement,” which the laborers signed to work on sugar plantations.

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Under this system, the British Empire transported more than a million Indians across five continents. In Fiji, the conditions were brutal, and the toll was high. Many laborers succumbed to illness or took their own lives during the voyage or upon arrival. Those who survived built a community in a foreign land, yet the British administration maintained few records of their origins, leaving many descendants with a genealogical void.

This lack of documentation has created a profound disconnect. For many, the suggestion to “go back to India” is a poignant impossibility; they may know they are Indian by descent, but the specific village, language, or family tree that connects them to the subcontinent was lost to time and colonial indifference. This erasure transforms the search for heritage into a search for ghosts.

The 1987 Coup and the Great Exodus

While the indentured laborers found a precarious stability in Fiji, that stability was shattered in the late 20th century. The political landscape of Fiji was marred by ethnic tensions, culminating in a series of military coups that targeted the Indo-Fijian population.

The 1987 Coup and the Great Exodus
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The first of these occurred on May 14, 1987, led by then-Lieutenant-Colonel Sitiveni Rabuka. The coup was explicitly anti-Indo-Fijian, designed to ensure indigenous Fijian political dominance. The violence and systemic discrimination that followed created an atmosphere of terror, particularly for those in professional fields such as journalism, and law.

The trauma of 1987 was not just political; it was deeply personal. Journalists faced the threat of violence in their own offices, and families who had called Fiji home for generations suddenly found themselves viewed as aliens in the only place they had ever known. This prompted a mass exodus of Indo-Fijians, who fled to countries including Canada, Australia, and New Zealand in search of safety and security.

Event Date/Period Impact on Indo-Fijians
First Girmitiya Arrival 1879 Start of Indian indentured labor in Fiji.
British Colonial Rule 1874–1970 Creation of the sugar economy and diaspora.
Rabuka Coup May 14, 1987 Triggered mass exodus and systemic displacement.

Navigating the Diaspora: From London to Auckland

For those who settled in New Zealand, the transition to Aotearoa brought a new set of challenges. While the country provided a safer future and economic opportunity, it did not automatically provide a sense of belonging. The experience of being a “Kiwi” often differs based on visibility; for many Indo-Fijians, the assumption of “foreignness” persists regardless of how many decades they have lived in the country.

Navigating the Diaspora: From London to Auckland
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This search for a “motherland” sometimes leads the diaspora back to the source of the original displacement: Britain. Because Fiji was a former British colony, there is an intuitive, if misplaced, hope that the UK might offer a sense of clarity or “making sense.” However, the reality is often a reminder of invisibility. While Londoners may be welcoming, the specific history of the Girmitiya—the shipping of millions of Indians to plantations—is rarely common knowledge, leaving the Indo-Fijian to feel unseen even in the heart of the empire that created their diaspora.

In New Zealand, this manifests as a subtle, persistent alienation—the shop assistant who speaks slowly as if the speaker cannot understand English, or the constant need to “prove” one’s Kiwiness. It creates a dichotomy of feeling deep gratitude for the safety and opportunities Aotearoa provides, while simultaneously mourning a lost sense of innate belonging.

Whakapapa and the Path to Healing

Finding a way forward often requires looking toward other indigenous frameworks of identity. In New Zealand, the Māori concept of whakapapa—the genealogical descent and connection to all things—offers a potential bridge for those searching for their place in the world.

Whakapapa and the Path to Healing
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Whakapapa teaches that knowing where you come from is not just about a list of names, but about understanding your connection to the land and your ancestors. For the Indo-Fijian, this means accepting that their “whakapapa” includes the trauma of the sugar plantations, the fear of the 1987 coup, and the bravery of parents who started over in an unfamiliar land.

Healing often comes through compact, ancestral rituals—the oiling of hair or the wearing of traditional garments—that connect the individual to a chain of women and men who survived against the odds. By embracing the “ghosts” of the past, the descendants of the Girmitiya can move from a state of wailing for belonging to a state of owning their complex, multifaceted identity.

As the Indo-Fijian community continues to integrate and influence the cultural fabric of New Zealand, the focus is shifting toward preserving oral histories and documenting the Girmitiya experience before the remaining first-hand accounts are lost. The next step for many in the diaspora is the formal archiving of these family narratives to ensure that future generations do not have to search for their ghosts in the dark.

We invite you to share your thoughts or your own experiences with diaspora and identity in the comments below.

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