After the recording against the Rosh Yeshiva – the husband plays Jonathan Schwartz in a chilling description of his election years: “I became an orphan at the age of 10. A very difficult childhood” Jump and finish my life “• The sentence of the Rebbe of Belza who changed his life • Watch the chilling monologue
The well-known musician’s husband, Yonatan Schwartz, recounts the ordeal he went through in his youth after being orphaned by his mother. Makes sense.
“I became an orphan at the age of 10. A very difficult childhood”
Schwartz opened the personal and chilling monologue, which went very viral, by describing the years after his mother’s death: “I wanted to share with you something very personal. I was born in Jerusalem. I was orphaned at the age of 10. After about three years in which my mother became ill when I was 7 and a half years old. A very difficult childhood, really a difficult childhood. “
“I was the boy about whom all the teachers said, ‘Nothing will ever come out of you.’
Schwartz recounted his relationship with educational staff at educational institutions: “I had times – without blinking I say it and if it saves one Jew it is worth saying it to me – when I was a guy, an orphaned boy, I was a tough guy, it was not easy for me, and it was not easy. To the yeshiva staff, but there were then classroom teachers and teachers who tortured me very severely, and I do not want to say names – they have families and I really wholeheartedly wish them the best, I do not hold a grudge or hatred in anyone’s heart. Do not forgive people – it is to let people live in your heart without paying rent. I do not want to, I forgive. “
The phone calls in the middle of the night and the “murder blows” that followed in the eyes of the entire yeshiva
Rabbi Schwartz said he tried to take revenge on one of the teachers who harassed him and in response received a cruel punishment that left scars on him for the rest of his life: “I want you to understand dear teachers, that I was the child everyone said: ‘From you nothing will grow. More outside the classroom than inside. “
“I remember,” Schwartz said, “and whoever studied with me then remembers it, when I went to study in a small yeshiva there was a Rosh Yeshiva – I did nonsense and called from all sorts of phones to one of my teachers who tortured me extremely severely, physically and mentally and more. And I was so angry. About him and I made all kinds of phone calls to him in the middle of the night, which is a very wrong thing to do. I’m ashamed to do it. But I was in Khurchik, a stupid teenage boy. “140 beatings in the hand, murder beatings that have caused me pain to this day. Murder beatings.”
Choked with tears: “After the beatings I went up to the roof. I wanted to jump and finish my life”
Here Schwartz cried out in tears and recounted a dramatic move he tried to make: “I remember after these beatings I went up on the roof. Yes, I did. I had severe anguish. I wanted to jump and finish my life. I do not know who saved me. I remember when I went into a big sitting, I was thrown out of the yeshiva for more nonsense. I went into the yeshiva director and begged him, I begged him. He pointed to the lamp in the room and said, ‘You can talk to the lamp.’ – I will not forget the words he said to me. “You need me here? Go,” he told me with contempt that penetrated me to the depths of my soul. “
“When I was thrown out of the yeshiva then,” Schwartz went on to say, “I went to the Schneller compound, there was a military camp there at the time. I begged them that I wanted to be in the army. I had nowhere to go. I had no home.”
The trial of the Rebbe of Belza who changed his life
He addressed a message to educators: “I want to tell you, they said ‘nothing will come of you’ – but I got married, I had a difficult marriage, then I got divorced and after a while I remarried with the help of the name, and since then I have been successful in starting a business with over 40 employees. I give a short lesson every week that reaches tens of thousands of people, God has given me grace. But I’ll tell you what was the point that changed my life, when I said ‘I can’ ‘.
“I will never forget it. It was on Hanukkah about 35 years ago, when I attended the lighting ceremony at the Rebbe of Belza, when the Rebbe left the Beit Midrash hall there were two rows of Hasidim. I was standing there with a suit that was not fully closed, and I had a gold pocket watch and the chain was tied to a button on my shirt. And the Rebbe stopped my watch and said to me one sentence: “To choose gold comes a gold watch.” I was not even close to a ‘golden guy’ but then my change began. ‘I am a golden guy and I can.’ Rebbe all over the world. Thank God, I recovered, I became what I became, “said Schwartz, who is very famous among the Hasidic circle, thanks to the musical albums he released and we rejoiced many hearts.