2023-05-03 06:30:00
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Wednesday, May 3, 2023 and today I want to talk to you about a personal and
Well, encourage me to tell it comes from the article that Fernando has written,
Fernando Sol de Vila, Fernando de Cidencia office. Regards Fernando, I’m sure you are
I’m sure you’re listening. Yesterday I wrote, I published an article on his blog called “El cielo ya
it’s not so gray”. A wonderful article like everything Fernando writes. I’m not going to tell you more
I recommend it to you and I leave it in the episode notes for you to read, it is what it deserves.
The fact is that your article has encouraged me to talk about something that, well, sooner or later I was going to tell
here because ultimately this is a personal podcast and it’s a personal part of me that some of
you will know although I have not talked much about it because I commented on it once in a couple of times
in science fiction in padrazos it has also come out but it has been the subject of anxiety for a few years
I know I have anxiety, I don’t know how to say since when I can tell you that I know when I discovered it and already
entry I tell you, I give you spoilers that the exact reason, I do not know and I do not know if I will ever know,
but hey, we go back to the beginning, at least to the beginning of the story that I am
aware of her. Let’s say the story goes back to December, to Christmas 2020. I say
never knowing what triggered it or if it already came from before or was from at that time because 2020 was
a year of many changes was a year of pandemic and being at home was also a year of change
job position let’s say in the same job but another position with more responsibility and then
It was also I became a dad so in the end it’s a lot of things or none of them the
The fact is that if it were not a time with so much change, then I would still be more capable of knowing the reason than
You don’t have to have to know it, but hey, it’s something I try to know every day either
but to sit down, the fact is that that year that year I did not know that I had anxiety, what was happening
is that I had a lot of back pain, pain also in the area of the diaphragm and I remember that
I was going to many physiotherapy sessions and one person told me that he had ever had
anxiety and I told her no, I looked at her strangely, pensive, but not with a reflective thought,
not thoughtful as trying to analyze the situation coldly to try to unite the
points and it is that at that moment I was capable of doing it and not simply because
say no no no The fact is that also at work a person also told me if
asked if it’s okay and I remember that the answer was more or less the same as that
physiotherapist and the fact is that well, it happened, that time passed but just a year later
also related to work and that is when these things usually appear after a period of
a lot of work and that’s why I was commenting on Fernando’s article before, after a while
a lot of work because they say that it is normal for this to happen, that it is when you finish that period of a
I work very hard when we say that the brain or the body realizes that stress and it manifests
that way. It was almost exactly a year later when the same thing happened to me again, physiologically
that back and diaphragm pain in that area there, but I began to associate it with other
things, with other thoughts, with another exhaustion, with a mental exhaustion and then there I did realize
realize that something was happening and that’s when I fell, when I fell that the previous year what had
past was just that and that I had not been able to realize and that a person had told me
Said explicitly, another person surely out of prudence did not mention the word but hey,
I have always thought, I have not asked, I have always thought that that word happened at that time
for his head but well, I imagine that due to responsibility he did not mention the high muzzle but yes,
That’s how it was, that’s how it was, the most I can say is that from that time, well, you ran into me and I told you
something that was not very normal for an angel to say and that the angel today does not say because that was the same
it was me without knowing what was happening to me and referring to ways that once you know how you are, well
It can be a little more thoughtful but well the fact is that if something like this happened with you I ask you
I’m sorry, but I just didn’t know what was happening to me. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time.
well, reflecting in the air as I am going to do many people about the balance between work,
leisure, the… well, all these things, right? and as in the end, well, we have set up a system that for
that works because you have to work, you have to produce and you have to earn money for later
spend that money in other places and that this is moving and well it is the game that we have played
decided to play, there will be those who agree more, those who agree less and in this totally
against, but in the end it is something that cannot be escaped, we are in this wheel and this
wheel if someone decides to stop by a place because everything goes to waste, although hey, this way of
function of this world in what we saw, well, it goes down from time to time, it seems that the crises
cycles are good, that’s part of the model and that’s what there is and you have to live it, but in the end what
It makes me think and well, that’s what there is and what can make you sadder in a moment less
sad is that need you have to be away from your loved ones for so long to do
something that you may like more or less and in my case I like it a lot but it is an intense job,
It is a job of responsibility and it is a job that can be mentally tiring, especially mentally,
but hey, the fact is that we are in a world in which you have to do that instead of being able to be
at home with the family and enjoying moments in which if once they have stopped you have stopped
of living them or have overlooked them and they will never return how wonderful it would be to live in a world where
the one where we didn’t have to work where we didn’t have to work where well we could do what
we obviously want with its limitations and you want something and you don’t have it because you won’t be able to have it
we live in a more complex world than that, more complex because in the end those who came before
we did it that way and we, well, once you are on the wheel it is very difficult, very
difficult to get out of but hey, it could come out but it’s not like what could be outside of that
be better, but hey here as always are reflections out loud with you and the thing is
that we are in a system in which it works that way and in the end, you can always leave
the question if we live to work, we work to live and when I say work I mean to do
something that leaves you, that prevents you, rather, from living in a few moments that are familiar or with what
you really want to do because you have to do other things, other things that are more obligations
real, life and death or more imposed obligations of “I like this and I need money
to buy it and so on”. You know what I mean, I think I don’t have to keep repeating
At this point, the thing is clear. The fact is that, well, a little after that year,
the first time it happened to me, well, there was a month of sick leave and it was not a month of sick leave that I
managed to find out what’s wrong with me and figure out what to do to lower that level of anxiety.
And what is clear to me is that what you have to do is find a balance,
that if you dedicate a lot to one thing later, as Fernando said in that article,
you also need to compensate, you need to download and honestly it is something that I have not yet
achieved, what has been achieved is to handle it much better, because also another thing that I learned
is that with anxiety I don’t know if that could be cured, but you can take the best, you can give yourself
realize how you are and react differently, to when you did not know and above all learn
to relativize things. In the end a job is a job, when I say this I mean any
work or whatever you are doing that has this feeling, it could be work,
it can be family life or it can be anything. The point is that everything needs a counterpoint,
but above all, what has helped me the most is thinking, focusing on what is important,
think that what is important, think about what things, if you miss them, they will never come back and if
when you think about that thing, tears come to your eyes, that’s what’s important. In the rest,
I can’t make you lose focus on what’s important, because then comes the worst and that’s when
that makes you lose focus and what is important when you are living it you are not able to take advantage of it,
because as I said before, that moment that you are living and that because you have something else in mind
you are not taking advantage of it, it will never happen again and I think that for today it is good that
by the way, that counterpoint I still think it could be sport but I haven’t done it yet
the spirit of practicing it again, I will inform you and nothing else, happy Wednesday and see you tomorrow.
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