2024-05-15 22:54:35
“It’s a ebook about trusting our personal emotions. About why we’re not related with them and what the results may be. However primarily it’s a ebook in regards to the journey to a fulfilled and genuine life. Such a journey contains disagreeable experiences and feelings in addition to uplifting and joyful moments,” says Klára Elšíková, writer and likewise editor of Aktuálně.cz, about her new ebook entitled Pacanka.
Who’s Pacanka?
A tomboy is a woman who acts like a boy. Rising up with boys, she is adventurous and courageous. That is why the phrase “tomboy” exists in English.
In your ebook, she’s a woman who drinks rather a lot, has, for instance, a wealthy intercourse life and generally talks fairly harshly. It nonetheless appears like issues ladies do not or should not do…
Sure, I needed to level out these bins. We nonetheless suppose that ladies are imagined to behave a sure means. I needed to shatter the concept of what a correct lady is and what’s not.
Girls nonetheless need to be largely good…
Definitely. I shall be 35 this 12 months and I’m surrounded by ladies who solely at this age are beginning to achieve self-confidence and study to precise what they do not like and what they want, from relationships to possibly a wage enhance. I believe {that a} attainable trigger is the truth that we’re introduced up in a type of concept of a super lady who ought to primarily hear, not stand out an excessive amount of and consider others initially. In consequence, we have no idea our boundaries in any respect and can’t defend them.
The phrase boundaries, recognizing them and setting them, is talked about a number of instances in that ebook…
Sure, it is a massive matter as a result of the principle character, like many people, he perceives his boundaries and learns to set them solely throughout his grownup life.
Pacanka drinks rather a lot, so it seems like she actually would not know her limits. Why are so many drowning in alcohol?
She is just not related to her inside world. I believe it occurs to us rather a lot. We don’t understand our wants, and as an alternative of with the ability to specific them and even perhaps implement them, we run away from dissatisfaction. We attempt to escape as a result of we’re not good at one thing.
Final 12 months, I filmed a podcast known as Na plech for Aktuální. Its topic is alcoholism. Every episode featured individuals who had some expertise with it. In all of them, we acquired to the great lady or good boy syndrome and the truth that they had been residing in a state of affairs through which they weren’t good. They solved it with alcohol. The second they modified their lives, they all of the sudden did not want alcohol. They not wanted to run.
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How does the ebook Helimadoe match into this, from which you quote a number of instances in your ebook?
Helimadoe is for me important ebook. I used to be on the cottage in the course of the covid pandemic. I did not have something to do there, I did not have a job, I did not have an house as a result of I got here again from Ukraine. And I borrowed this ebook from a buddy and skim it there. I assumed Helimadoe was very up-to-date on one thing, though it was already printed in 1940. The story of Dora, who runs away with a magician as a result of she needs to stay one thing apart from what’s historically offered because the “good life”, resonated with me rather a lot. On the one hand, Pacanka can appear unmoored and irresponsible, however then again, she thinks completely about what her existence ought to truly seem like.
Pacanka typically talks about freedom, for instance: “You maintain freedom with each palms.” However this shall be heard at a time when there’s various alcohol in it.
I simply needed to indicate that we frequently search for freedom within the mistaken means. For me personally, it’s important that I be at liberty in life and stay my very own means. On the identical time, I do know that it’s not all the time straightforward to comprehend that freedom lies within the inside world. Pacanka travels rather a lot and you may say that she would not miss freedom, however she always frees herself by consuming. She longs for freedom, however realizes it within the mistaken means. Lots of people are like that. They’re at work all week, on Friday they go to defecate and really feel that they’re lastly free, however it’s not fairly the identical. Booze doesn’t give us freedom.
Pattern from the ebook Pacanka
You go to the Liberal, there could be some good guys, however once you stroll in, you notice there isn’t any bar. However you do not wish to flip round immediately, you sit down on the desk, though you realize that individuals are sitting there alone, in contrast to behind the bar. On the bar, you get pleasure from solitude, you settle for it, you realize it is a part of the method, an entry level resulting in intercourse and a very good feeling. On the desk, you’ll be able to’t go anyplace from solitude, you simply preserve your self in it, it’s important to stare at a ebook or your cell phone, the desk as a protecting defend in opposition to: “Hey, are you right here alone?” No, you do not really feel like life is nice on the desk.
As quickly as they create you the wine, you go outdoors to mild a cigarette, you rested the material along with your buying on the leg of the desk, you needed to tie the bag’s handles in order that the yogurts would not fall to the bottom. There’s a couple standing subsequent to you, they’re drunk, flirting, inside an hour the lady shall be sighing someplace in mattress, would you prefer to too. There is no such thing as a different smoker there, you return to the pub, you’ve gotten nearly completed the wine outdoors, so that you pay and go away. You name Zuzana from work, who lives close by and he or she retains saying that it’s important to go someplace, however each time you name or textual content her, she would not choose up and would not reply. While you meet her in additional than a 12 months in a metropolis the place you not work collectively, and he or she says, “We have to exit for espresso someday,” you smile and inform her why she’s saying that when she would not actually imply it.
You are truly glad that you do not thoughts, you don’t need the seems that say you are packing an excessive amount of and that you just should not take it straightforward.
You pay, throw the heavy fabric along with your buying over your shoulder, smoke a cigar and go upstairs to Kobra, they’ve a bar there. You pull the document down beneath the fountains on the bar, plug your ears and order pink wine. When he places it in entrance of you, you instantly take it and go outdoors to smoke, you’re keen on how pink wine washes down the style of the cigarette in your mouth. Two guys who converse English are smoking a brief distance from you, you take a look at them, they give the impression of being regular, tremendous, however you do not say something but, you do not drive your self, every thing has its time. You return inside and revel in sitting alone on the bar, that you are able to do completely something. “I am begging you, how does it look,” you hear from mother, who would positively go residence first to hold the buying and would not truly go anyplace, in spite of everything, it is previous 9 and pa is ready at residence. Nobody is ready for you at residence or anyplace else, you do not have to jot down to anybody, clarify something, you’ll unfold your arms as vast as attainable in case you needed to present others what an enormous lady you might be.
Each reader is all the time to what extent the given ebook is predicated on the writer and the way a lot it’s impressed by his life. I ponder if she was impressed by your travels. Have you ever skilled Ukraine as you describe it within the ebook?
The novel is partially impressed by my experiences. And in my very own means, I skilled Ukraine as it’s described within the ebook. It was very wild, but additionally loving. I met nice individuals there and I keep in mind her very fondly.
With Pacanka, the reader will journey to a number of locations, nevertheless it begins in Niozemska. Do you even have your individual expertise with him?
I lived there for 2 years. I labored in a bar and cleaned, so truly even these passages are rather a lot about what I skilled there and the way I felt. Typically the prevailing concept is that if we go someplace, one thing will occur and all of the sudden we shall be joyful, however the actuality is commonly completely different. We’ll cope with the issues we cope with within the Czech Republic s most definitely to deal elsewhere. Just lately, a woman advised me within the Canary Islands: “Do not search for paradise right here, that paradise is inside you.”
So to what extent does Pacanka come out of you?
Like Pacanka, I traveled and skilled one thing, however it’s not an autobiography. But it surely’s true that I additionally steamed rather a lot in a sure interval of my life. At one level, it truly grew to become such a behavior. It was regular that wherever you go or do something, you drink. With the ebook, I needed to boost a dialogue in regards to the extent to which this “steaming” is absolutely regular and “free”.
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Klára Elšíková
- She studied journalism and cultural research on the Palacký College in Olomouc. Prior to now she wrote for Forbes, Marianne or A2. Largely externally, when she labored, for instance, as supervisor of the Prague dance troupe DOT504, with which she toured Europe and took part in main theater festivals (Fringe in Edinburgh).
- She likes to journey, get to know new locations and every thing that belongs to them. That’s the reason she lived for 2 years in Groningen and half a 12 months in Odesa, the place she labored behind a bar and taught Czech beneath the Czech Heart Kyiv.
- In 2013, she printed the novella Zítra already usnu by the publishing home Revolver Revue.
- Her second ebook, Pacanka, is now being printed by the publishing home Host