Teh start of a new year is as electrifying as it is dizzying. Everything is so possible that it becomes intimidating.
I actually like this feeling, it doesn’t scare me.I like to vibrate with hope, to fuel dreams and hopes. A new year is a 12-month canvas, where anything can take shape. Three hundred and sixty-five days which will be filled with plans and infinite surprises.Isn’t that great?
Speaking of hope, I ended the year 2025 with a miracle: I regained hearing in my left ear. I am very aware of how lucky I was. I am grateful every day.
Let the light in
My ability to always hope for the best began in 2005 when the album Plans, by Death Cab for Cutie, came into my life. At that time, it was rare for such luminous music to appeal to me. I could have resisted, fought against the attraction and let my emo pride convince me that I didn’t like it.
In 2005, I was a teenager with a very dark mood, who lived on hardcore music.This style of music was like an outlet for my soul, which held back from shouting loudly, but did so through music. That being said, despite my teenage mood, I let myself be carried away by the hopeful melodies of the American band. soft tunes like a warm summer wind, sad ballads, but with clearings.
L’album Plansby Death Cab for Cutie, was the soundtrack of my CEGEP years. I was looking for myself, I was trying to understand myself, I felt overwhelmed, I had nowhere to anchor myself, I was buried under questions that had remained unanswered for a long time. I was trying to see too far ahead.
It took me a while to grasp that I just had to take it one thing at a time: a heartbreak, a victory, a failure, a disappointment, an prospect. I had to learn to savor the good without imagining the worst, and to get through it while keeping in mind that the good always comes back.
An empty room
ben Gibbard, the singer of Death Cab for Cutie, certainly has no idea to what extent his voice will have been a precious night light in my dark moments. How many times have I listened to him sing “And start new when your heart is an empty room», lyrics of their song Your Heart Is an Empty Room? My adolescent heart, so often empty and exhausted from disappointment, probably learned to deal with its own discomfort thanks to these simple words. These words had the power to make me believe that something good was going to happen. And when you believe in that, the tide always ends up turning.
I listened to the album Plans recently and I thought back to the Sabrina of 2005, to the one who so needed a light to slip into her life. Today, I realize that if the clearings were able to sneak into my heart, it is because there was space. And this is my wish for this new year that is beginning: open your arms wide,as everything is absolutely possible!
