From Journalist to Yogi: Finding Freedom and Facing Fears After Leaving the newsroom
A former journalist reflects on her recent career change, embracing yoga and confronting personal anxieties as she charts a new path forward.
The end of a career often marks not an ending, but a beginning-a sentiment keenly felt by one former journalist who recently concluded her run in the newsroom. Having officially resigned, she now playfully wonders if she’s transitioned from a “yoga-doing journalist” to simply “Sasha, the yogi.” This piece marks the final entry in her “Brunch Book” series, a personal chronicle of her journey, and a promise of more to come with a new yoga-focused series on the horizon.
The author began by revisiting a passage from Han Su-hee’s The Problem of the Mind, specifically page 128: “I am gripped by fear.I am confused. I can do nothing. In the face of all this misfortune, bad luck, and calamity, ther is nothing I can do.” Yet, the following line offered a crucial counterpoint: “But nothing has happened yet.” This resonated deeply as she faced the daunting task of finishing this particular “Brunch Book,” a project she’d put aside for over a month.
“It was frightening,” she admits. “I felt paralyzed, like I couldn’t write a single sentence.” But,she quickly realized that this fear was unfounded. the very act of writing the second paragraph proved her initial anxieties wrong. Recalling Han Su-hee’s words – “So, so, you’ve somehow managed to survive,” – she found renewed courage. The transition from a demanding job, but now, as an individual unburdened by a customary work schedule, versatility was paramount.”I have time now,” she reflects. The new studio, with a maximum capacity of 20, offers a more intimate setting than her previous studio, allowing for a “deeper” and more foundational approach to yoga under the guidance of the studio’s owner and an instructor named S. She particularly enjoys the Ashtanga and Vinyasa classes offered.
the author shared details from her yoga journal, specifically her experience at the Yangyang retreat. The studio, situated directly on the beach, offered a serene and breathtaking view.It was there, during an evening yoga session, that she first attempted Sirsasana – the headstand.
“I was terrified,” she confessed. The instructor, seemingly confident in her ability, remained attentive, providing support as she tentatively lifted her legs. A wave of fear washed over her, a sensation of her neck perhaps snapping. She deliberately lowered herself, fearing paralysis. Despite the initial fear,she felt a sense of accomplishment,realizing she was closer to mastering the pose than she’d imagined. This experience sparked a deeper contemplation: “Perhaps overcoming this fear is the key to overcoming challenges in all aspects of my life.”
The following morning, she watched the sunrise, shared tea with fellow practitioners, and engaged in mindful movement. “It was a time to freely explore my mat, and beyond,” she wrote. “I felt a sense of agency,freedom,and pushing my limits. My authentic self was fully present.” The instructor concluded the session with a simple mantra: “Today will be a brave day.”
After the retreat, she visited a local independent bookstore in Yangyang, indulging in a small shopping spree – a gift for her husband, a house-shaped ornament, and a pastel beaded bracelet. “I spent over 80,000 won,” she admitted with a laugh, “but it was worth it for the joy and peace of mind.” She realized the simple pleasure of solo travel.
Returning to her new local studio, she anticipates trying a class with a male instructor, J, who teaches on Saturdays – a first for her. She acknowledges the presence of ongoing anxieties and even depression, and reveals she is currently taking medication prescribed by a psychiatrist following a recent health check-up. Her plan for the remainder of the year is to prioritize happiness, freedom, and tranquility, with yoga playing a central role.
